Saturday, December 29, 2012

Almost-finale.

20 days left to our Final Professional Exam (Part I). Theory papers. Passing this wins you a one-way ticket to the last semester of medical school.

Starts on January 18th until the 23rd. Result announcement will be on the 23rd itself, late afternoon.

This is it, Amal. Please, this is it.

Currently at verge of tears after being killed mercilessly by mock exam questions.

O Allah help us, please.


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Location:Putrajaya, Malaysia

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Hydration.

Hadis Rasulullah SAW yang bermaksud:

"Tidaklah seorang muslim tertimpa suatu penyakit dan sejenisnya melainkan Allah akan menggugurkan bersamanya dosa-dosanya seperti pohon yang menggugurkan daun-daunnya." (Hadis riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim)

Entering day 4 of excessive hydration by force. Well, self-force.

Symptoms are still there, praying that they will disappear soon, please.

Dislikes Potassium Citrate that tastes like acid and gives abdominal discomfort after ingestion. But undeniably, it's awfully good in doing its function, all right.

Unpleasant sensation.

InsyaAllah, pemadam dosa-dosa.

Ya Allah, ya Rabbi, please heal me.

Must learn to put reminder into own brain without depending on phone to remind when to take medications. Zzz.

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Location:Danau Kota, Kuala Lumpur

Monday, March 05, 2012

Patience.

"O ye who believe! Seek help with patient perseverance and prayer; for Allah is with those who patiently persevere." (2:153)

Psychiatry posting officially started last week but today marked our first day at Psychiatry Ward at Kuala Lumpur General Hospital (HKL).

Last night could barely sleep. Finished case writeup before 1am (professional procrastinator who never learnt her lesson?) but prolonged glucose effect of dark chocolate buttons-nibbling-while-CWUing kept brain awake till almost 3am.

Woke up and got ready before sunrise. Fought and fumbled with iron that refused to stop trying to repetitively burn and singe my tudung.

Left Cyberjaya for HKL at 0640 hours. Mady and Liyana carpooled with us. Reached HKL before 7.30am. Rested and relaxed in car till 8.30 before walking quite a distance to Psych Ward (+10 minutes walk from the car park). At 11am rushed to KLRC (KL Resource Center) which is like 10minutes away from the ward (and have to cross jalan yang sesak with cars), alas, class was canceled. Then walked back to ward to clerk patients (!!). Since we were to have class at 2.30pm at KLRC, at 1.30pm, we left the ward back to RC.

Case presentation with Prof. N from 2.30pm - 4.30pm but could barely understand or concentrate past 4pm. He's an awesome Psych doctor but we had a long day and it was only our first day at HKL, have yet to adjust to the whole routine. After class, walked from RC to the carpark (15-20mins?), wet as it was raining. Somehow felt as if the rain did manage to wash away some of the tiredness. Alhamdulillah.

Kesian Mady. Kaki dia masih belum pulih sepenuhnya (fractured right med malleolus, no?), kne jalan sungguh jauh back and forth. Felt quite helpless xtau how to help her. Masa-masa like this, betul cakap Mady, bila Allah tarik nikmat (jalan without pain), baru tahu the feeling. May Allah heal her fast!

Time balik... Well. Of course we got stuck at Jalan Tun Razak (before Prince Court Med Center), as always, for 1 hour. Now rushing on MEX highway. Have yet to decide what to have to break fast. Kesian Nebbey drive, mesti penat.. Besok is my turn! Zzz...

Have to do movie report tonight (A Beautiful Mind!). Plus, complete TCM logbook. Then have to study Psych history-taking, all those phenomenology again and mental state examination (MSE).

... Repeat this routine for the next 4 days of the week, and the next 6 weeks.

Sesungguhnya hanya mampu berdo'a again and again so that Allah SWT will grant us extra strength (physically, mentally and emotionally) to patiently persevere through this rotation so that we could learn as much as possible from it and utilise the knowledge in near future, insyaAllah. Lillahi ta'ala.

So this is how my life will be like in a year (approx) to come. Am I prepared for this? Am I well equipped, knowledge-wise, physically, mentally, psychologically? Help me, ya Allah. Make me a safe doctor so that I could serve the people.

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How were the patients? Too intensely interesting to be told in here. Alhamdulillah, a whole new experience indeed! Maybe later, when feet are less edematous (what's the link?) and head's throbbing-free.

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Location:Jalan Tun Razak, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Istikharah.

Ya Allah, please put my heart at ease and bless me with Your utmost guidance so I could make the right and best decision without regretting it later in the future.

Ya Rabbi, aku berserah kepada ketentuanmu. Jika benar itu yang terbaik untukku, bukakanlah pintu hatiku untuk membuat keputusan dan menerima takdirmu dengan seadanya, ya Allah. Sesungguhnya Engkau yang Maha Mengetahui apa yang sudah tertulis untukku di Luh Mahfuz.

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Hadith yang dikeluarkan oleh al-Bukhari di dalam Sahihnya dengan sanadnya daripada Jabir radhiyallaahu ‘anhuma, beliau berkata:

Daripada Nabi sallallaahu ‘alayhi wa sallam Baginda bersabda:

"Apabila sesiapa daripada kalangan kamu diberatkan oleh sesuatu maka hendaklah dia Rukuk dengan dua Rukuk (mengerjakan Solat dua rakaat) yang selain daripada Solat yang Fardhu (yakni mengerjakan Solat dua Rakaat dengan niat Istikharah).

Kemudian hendaklah dia berdoa: Ya Allah, aku beristikharahkan Engkau dengan ilmu-Mu dan aku juga memohon ketetapan dengan ketetapan yang bersandarkan kurniaan-Mu yang Maha Agung. Engkaulah yang Maha Menetapkan sedangkan aku tidak mampu untuk menetapkan. Engkau Maha Mengetahui dan aku pula tidak mengetahui. Engkaulah yang Maha Mengetahui akan perkara-perkara yang tersembunyi. Ya Allah, jika pada ilmu-Mu sesungguhnya urusan ini – harus disebut hajat tersebut atau cukup sekadar meniatkannya kerana Allah Maha Mengetahui akan hajat itu – adalah baik untukku pada agama, kehidupan dan kesudahan urusanku (kini dan datang), maka tetapkanlah ia untukku dan mudahkanlah ia bagiku. Kemudian berkatilah bagiku di dalam pilihan ini. Dan andaikata pada ilmu-Mu sesungguhnya hal ini adalah buruk bagiku pada agama, kehidupan dan kesudahan urusanku (kini dan akan datang), maka hindarkanlah ia daripadaku dan hindarkanlah aku daripadanya. Tetapkanlah bagiku kebaikan dan jadikanlah aku redha dengannya."

Monday, February 13, 2012

Setulusnya.

Mukhayyam PeMaCU 2012 @ Pasir Panjang.

My 1st mukhayyam. 2 hari 2 malam that changed my life, for the better, insyaAllah.

Suddenly terasa sangat berat bahu nak memikul tanggungjawab yang telah diamanahkan.

Mampu ke? InsyaAllah if niat betul, mesti boleh punya.

Bantulah kami, ya Allah.

Suatu pengalaman yang priceless. Juga suatu pengorbanan that left people speechless and in tears, walaupun agak terpaksa pada mulanya tetapi kemudiannya insyaAllah redha dan ikhlas lillahi ta'ala.

Jihad yang terbesar sekarang adalah diri sendiri. Istiqamah. And to improve lagi.

InsyaAllah.



EdCoustic - Aku Ingin MencintaiMu.

Tuhan betapa aku malu
Atas semua yang Kau beri
Padahal diriku terlalu sering membuatMU kecewa
Entah mungkin kerna ku terlena
Sementara Engkau beri aku kesempatan
Berulang kali
Agar aku kembali
Dalam fitrahku sebagai manusia untuk menghambakanMU
Betapa tak ada apa-apanya
Aku dihadapanMU
Aku ingin mencintaiMU
Setulusnya
Sebenar-benar aku cinta
Dalam doa
Dalam ucapan
Dalam setiap langkahku
Aku ingin mendekatiMU
Selamanya
Sehina apapun diriku
Ku berharap
Untuk bertemu dengan-MU
Ya Rabbi

P/s: 500++ past posts of this blog have been saved in draft for editing purposes (somewhere in near future, if I have time to do so).

Ain: I have no other blog than this :) xx